the fly

makes a visit

a children's book i would like to write

new things

i've had this numbness in my fingers for the past three months or so.

i probably pulled something while taking class and am feeling the repercussions of not tending to my muscles in the way that i should; however, i prefer to look at it as a sign of subconscious apprehensiveness. although i say i am ready to befriend this new country- its culture, its people and this new life that i've made for myself, i can't help but notice this underlying fear and nervousness that ebbs and flows like a tide beneath me... i'm reminded of it every time i hear its subtle slap against the dock that is my brain; like a nervous tap or poke of someone i'm trying to ignore. so every time i touch something and realize that i can't completely feel it through this layer of tingling, i see it as an unwillingness to accept the reality that i am starting over from scratch. my second life is beginning, and i am learning how to walk and talk all over again.